that's how I feel making the same mistake for the hundredth time
it's just to go down and open door... but what then? shall I promise for the hundredth time that it won't happen again?
shall I stand there crying not being able to say a word?
or turn around for him to just kick my ass as I surely deserve that?
maybe they are all right, that is just to change the way, nothing more
somehow feels impossible
how to know what do I want?
I feel empty
