piece of shit

or maybe rather mountain of crap

that's how I feel making the same mistake for the hundredth time

it's just to go down and open door... but what then? shall I promise for the hundredth time that it won't happen again?

shall I stand there crying not being able to say a word?

or turn around for him to just kick my ass as I surely deserve that?

maybe they are all right, that is just to change the way, nothing more

somehow feels impossible

how to know what do I want?

I feel empty

vertigo

Emptiness is making circles above my head
Should I stop it
Or let it go?
which side would it go?
what if it explode?
will it spread the crumbs of destruction?
or make it blank, for rewriting again?

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Now playing: MAREK GRECHUTA - Zagadki
via FoxyTunes

Somehow not well...

"I'll have a blue Christmas without you
I'll be so blue just thinking about you
Decorations of red on a green Christmas tree
Won't be the same, dear, if you're not here with me"


Merry Christmas!
Wesołych Świąt!
¡Feliz Navidad!