11.30.2009

Mafijne :D

We went to buy bread and some sweet. A small shop on the corner (I shall write about it a little more later) - La tienda de Juan. We were staring at the shelves with cookies searching for something really good, while strange letters caught my eye. Nowość! goddamn, that's polish. Polish cookies in a small spanish shop. Mafijne, my favourites :D Small things can really make you smile ;)

7.07.2009

piece of shit

or maybe rather mountain of crap
that's how I feel making the same mistake for the hundredth time
it's just to go down and open door... but what then? shall I promise for the hundredth time that it won't happen again?
shall I stand there crying not being able to say a word?
or turn around for him to just kick my ass as I surely deserve that?
maybe they are all right, that is just to change the way, nothing more
somehow feels impossible
how to know what do I want?
I feel empty

5.19.2009

I'm a woman!

I'm silk and satin 
And I know child and lover's pain 
But don't be fooled 'cause I'm tender hearted 
I'm stronger than a hurricane 

I like fire, I like ice 
I can cut you like a knife 
But I'd rather be nice 
I'm a woman 

So don't push and don't shove 
What you want there's plenty of 
I was born to make love 
I'm a woman 

Hot nights... dripping passion 
Lead you to my bed of flames 
Leave your world enter my enchantment 
And I will love you wild and un-restrained

you can listen here:


4.29.2009

Wirhlwinds

I went out and the sky was dark blue. I was very surprised, because it was morning. Some light was visible above the buldings. "Aurora borealis?" I thought "But here? How come?" I was very confused, but then it started to get brighter. I looked at the city and noticed a big whirlwind somewhere far away in front of me and some smaller ones on the right. I thought that I have to hide, but first of all "I should go back to the forest, take all my things from the tent". The problem was - the whirlwind was fast... What if I won't be on time, and get caught in the middle of the forest? "But I left there my mobile and Śnieżka! Then it may be a mess everywhere, what will I do without the phone?! And my little Misia!". On my way back I met some german couple, I explained them about the danger and helped them to open some heavy door. We entered a strange place, and get to the roof. From there I saw that the whirlwinds had disappeared. For now...
I decided to go back as soon as I could. I was walking and wondering if I remember the way. Suddenly I looked to the right and saw a huge bridge and that sight scared me as hell. "The brandenburg bridge!" I was thinking that's it's almost a sin, that I have not seen it before, but now there was no time for it, and anyway the open space on the other side was terryfying. I went into the forest and tried to know which way to take. One of the roads was full of hippies the other, going up was empty I took that one, but it was difficult because I had rollerblades on my feet. Going down was also hard, I was afraid of going to fast.


I think I never get to the place I wanted, at 9.45 the alarm in my mobile phone reminded me to change my contraception patch ;)

4.28.2009

Awesome

I was walking up the stairs and as soon as I reached my floor, a neighbour from downstairs went out of her flat with a needle in her forearm. I hurried so she wouldn't ask me for any help. I was not feeling like helping any injections. Luckily she just knocked on the door opposite of her flat. I knocked to the door of my flat and checked if they were open. No one was at home for a long time before. Surprisingly this time it was open. So I entered.
"Finally someone is at home!"
And yes, there was someone. My mum came out from the kitchen dressed in a habit. I felt like someone has shot me. I slumped to the ground covering my mouth opened with shock. My mum seeing my face quickly added:
"Oh, dad was allowed to pray" like if that was enough for her to become a nun now.
I started to cry loud not knowing what to do and she was just standing there with a holy smile. After I managed to stop the ocean of my tears I went to the living room and had a closer look at her new nun's clothes. Still sobbing I said:
"Oh, but there are drawings of the moomins on this"
"Yes, because it's the same company that is making them" answered my mum comforting me.
And I wonder why we can not realise in time, that such a bullshit can only be a dream? :D

When my alarm clock sounded I still had this absurd situation in my mind but as I took a shower I let it go. The day was so beautiful... I had two hours free after work and before my lecture so I decided to go to the beach. As I approached the water, the strong smell of the sea, literally hit my nostrils. I smiled to myself, it felt so good... My plan was to sit there for some time, have my lunch and go walking to the university. But the wind was so strong that it was difficult to eat without the sand inside the food :) But who would care, looking at the deep, blue green of the sea?
Śnieżka was happy too :)

4.27.2009

worries, worries, no more worries

People worry, what are they worrying about today
Seems like there's a good reason to worry worry worry
Seems like there's a damn good reason to worry worry worry

And so I worry, because there is always a reason. I spent three weeks worrying that I made myself a holiday and do not work on my thesis. And oas always I was stressed before going to see my tutor. And as always I worried for nothing. Because I always want to be better than I am. Thinking I can do more. Officiousness is not cool ;)

"You should be doing researches. You have cool results. Some people have just the thing for it" ;)
said my tutor before I went out.

High time to understand it and finally stop the damn irrational worries.
Easier said than done.
But come on Liv... ;)

Do do do do it tonight
People worry, what are they worrying about today
People worry
Now you see I've learned my lessons
And I don't even want to hear about your confessions

3.31.2009

Finally the real spring..

We had such a nice day today... Me and Roger of course :D I said goodbye to everyone at work and went to the beach... I could hardly focus on my evening lecture :D
Just two days more and I will be with my love.
Yeah, let's not be afraid of that word :D
My love :D

3.25.2009

Spring, Frühling, primavera, Весна, wiosna, printemps...


Looks nice, huh? beautiful I would say... Just that I'm tired... I'm so damn tired of frost, cold and snow. It's the end of March for God's sake!! I wanna green grass and warm sun :(

3.20.2009

Could I dream of a better family? ;)

The three of us on the sofa, watching old documentaries. Me with a sandwich in my hand and with damn PMS, suddenly got tears in my eyes.
- I feel like crying - I said almost scared
- What?
- I feel like crying and I don't know why - I said again.
- You're destabilized sexually - my dad summed up and the tears in my eyes were immediately replaced by a smile.

3.09.2009

...

Drop by drop is falling down to the coffee pot. Minute after minute is passing by. Cloud by cloud is moving behind the window. And I could spend all afternoon just staring at these slow movements, sitting motionlessly. It's been a while since I felt like today. A moment of desintegration. Slightly out of my body but not out of my mind. Serious and focused on my work, I can't even say if I am happy or not. Everything is just dull. My eyes must be gray and cold, as is the music I listen to. I know it will change before I get into the train this evening. I do not worry. Just do not talk to me, do not smile to me today. You may get the wrong idea.
And it will all vanish, hide behind the horizon, as the sun does every day.

3.05.2009

Lazy day

Agnieszka: Wait, it will be Easter soon, we should write something about it too.. some connection..
Liv: Yeah, like "why it is good to eat eggs"
A: Hahaha "10 resons why eggs are worth eating"
L: More like "10 resons why it is good to have some egg in your mouth this Easter"
A: Haha you can't imagine more sexy thing, than a woman with a whole egg in her mouth
L. Point 10. Which eggs are we talking about..? muahahaha
A: You better keep on thinking about the topics
L: I do, I do! I think in action. Look, I have finished... my masterpiece.
A: Show me what have you done... - she looked at my piece of paper, quickly filled with some colorfull lines and a title "Piece Of Art" - uhum... you better take off that hood from your head! Your brain is getting too hot.

2.26.2009

La la la...

My mind is singing today, though I myself would rather prefer to realx on the sofa... I have passed my exam! :D That's what makes me so happy and relaxed. And this morning, my boss dropped by for a moment, as he and M. were going together for a meeting. I went to have a shower in the meantime. I thought they will be gone before I come out. But as soon as I walked out from the shower I heard him saying:
- Oliwia! Whate are you doing so long in the bathroom!
- What do you mean? I'm hiding here, with my passionate lover!
- Oh... I thought you were there with your passionate vibrator.
- Er... nah... mine is not water resistant, I think...
Here I heard two voices laughing and few advices how good is the morning quick sex againt the sink or washing machine ;) I will miss that job.

2.21.2009

Pre exam wake up

It happens sometimes that I wake up with some word or song in my mind. I can't get rid of it whole day. Once it was Manolo Blahnik, other time some german word, I checked in the dictionary in my dream, not long ago it was the song of Avenue D - Stick It In.
But today I woke up with "operculum parietale" and "lobotomy".
Wish me well. I need luck on this exam.

2.12.2009

Cinema

I went to the toilet. An older woman was inside. She was short and rather fat, with gray hair. She was looking at me so smiled to her.
- It's a movie about a couple that kidnapped a baby - she said with an excitement in her voice.
- Oh, yes? - I replied thinking lazily if I want to get involved in such "toilet conversation" and tell her that I believe the movie is about something else. But I was thinking to slow.
- Yes, a terrible drama - her eyes were telling that drama is what she liked.
- Uhum...
- Ithought that will be the other movie, from Polański
- Oh the..
- But that was The Rosemary's Baby
- Yes, that's a completely different one...
But she kept on staring at me and I started to feel uncomfortable so pointing to the closed doors I asked a silly question, with an obvious answer.
- Both of them occupied?
- Yes, of course - she added few details how someone entered the cabins before her.
- Uhum
- But ... you have such a nice hairstyle Miss!
- Mmm.. yes? thank you Mrs.
- Yes, very nice, and how it look from the back?
I turned my head around preventing her raising hand to touch me.
- From the back also very nice. Who is cutting your hair? Very nice - she gestured to show how nice was my fringe - You cut your hair here in Sopot? Very nice.
- Oh, thank you. I actually want them long again so it is not much of a hairstyle...
- Oh but you look very nice miss, why to keep them long when you look so good in short?
Someone came out of one cabin so luckily for me she entered. Unfortunately the other cabin was still occupied and I felt a bit disgusted that I will have to use the one after my interlocutor. She seemed rather untidy.
- I can't be faster, I had an accident, fell down on a...
- Don't you worry Mrs - I cut her sentence and entered the cabin. And damn... I have not expected such stink there. I was thinking if to run away or what. I tried to put my scarf over my nose and even got afraid that I may catch some of that stink. I don't mind people who just need to talk. But why they need to stink so much...

2.08.2009

Everybody be cool this is a robbery!


I feel like watching Pulp Fiction again...
I remember when I saw it for the first time... It took us two od three days, because I was falling asleep everytime we started :D
But since I watched it in the cinema I got really crazy about that movie.
Right now the soundtrack is not enough...
I think I will watch it again. Maybe again I will fall asleep in the middle, but who cares... :D


Any of you fuckin' pricks move and I'll execute every motherfuckin' last one of ya!

2.03.2009

womanish stuff

Robert: You think you will get along, living together with M.?
Liv: Yeah, sure, we will manage. You know, I am not the one making many problems.
R: I got the feeling, that you are not like that.
L: So what... you mean that M. is?
R: M. is just more womanish, you know. Moody.
L: Oh yes... you may be right...
R: In you I can' see it. I never know when you have period. Or you are masking yourself very well or you just don't have that mood changes.
L: Hahaha... so then I guess it affects only my closest circle. You know, G. always know...
R: Ohh... poor guy.

1.27.2009

artists vs scientists

They say artists are so free and liberated. They can do whatever. Maybe.
But scientists are the ones seeking for answers. They need an empirical proofs for their theories. They tend to experimentate.
And maybe there are not that many differences as we think there are.
I don't know. I don't feel well today.

1.19.2009

even at work...

I was trying to finish the article about Rome, but couldn't focus much. I read again the last sentence and it was horrible. More less: "... since the hand put inside of the deity's mouth, was being biten off", just that in polish it was even with some rhyme. I found it quite funny so, as I was talking with R. about being creative, I copied him that sentence to illustrate the work of my brain... ;)
R: even with a little rhyme
(...)
and a bit erotic :P
O: hahaha deity's mouth hahahaha
now it sounds to me more like the legends about vagina dentata, or how was it called...
R: ha ha
O: damn, now you made me think in such way and everything I write sounds with some naughty implied meaning... :P
R: ha ha ha
O: but look: "with insincere intentions, it's better not to try putting your hands inside of the mouth of truth..." :P
R: good that only hands :P
O: now, just the "Mouth of Truth" sounds a bit... :P
R: we are just perverts :)
O: eh... we need to face that truth
R: we need, we need
just not to put anything in its mouth for now
even hands :P
O: hahahahaha

1.12.2009

mother mary

so here she is. on the crowded market. wearing a short, white jacket with some artificial fur surrounding the hood, tight jeans and high heeled boots. her left hand is up, pressing the mobile phone against her ear. right hand is down, next to a baby in a stroller. between second and third finger she holds a cigarette. that hand is a great attraction to the baby. the mother shakes it up and down, letting the baby catch her little finger for then to take it away. she keeps on repeating "hi, hi, hi..."

i should face it: i'm not as tollerant as i thought i was.

1.08.2009

my new baby

I lied down on my bed, decided to study a bit. After a while I took my eyes off the book, thinking about something. I looked at the big, white stain on the wall. It's right above my bed and really annoys me. Someone must have crushed something into that place, as the paint went off together with a piece of the wall. I started to think how to cover it. It's too low to just put a picture there... Especially when I had already three pictures above.
And then it came... :P

The idea! ;D
I couldn't focus on reading anymore. I jumped out of the bed, grabbed the scissors, a Monday's newspaper and after few songs, three small sausages and 3/4 of "Lost" chapter it was ready.
My new baby...
I'm a proud mother of "The Mucha Tree" ;)




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